On deck for me now, is “curious”(3).

I’m feeling scared, confused, and isolated. My call for humanity’s welfare is considered violent and violence is condoned as the answer. In questioning what I thought I knew, my motives are questioned. In wanting solidarity with another people, I’m alienated from mine. I’m told I’m naive, disloyal, and making things worse. Am I? 

I don’t know where to go from here, but know I can’t go backwards either. Best I can do is hold space for me, and you, and the pain of those who came before us. Best I can do is hope that together we can heal and start creating better. Best I can do is honor my soul and allow myself to feel…, curious. 

Spinning

Watching history repeat itself because it is not healed

Trauma cycles of pain paid forward

Power and greed hijacking truth for their betterment

Humanity trapped in the crossfire of scarcity 

Spinning

No song can capture the vastness of my confusion 

Unlearning the oppression of the binary is hard

My open eyes sting, my heart breaks

The eerie melody of my breath appropriately hollow

Spinning 

Feeling the guidance of my highest self 

Pushing me past my fear, past what I think I know 

Urging me to feel curious, even though I am distraught

I don’t have answers, but questions are potent 

Spinning

Unraveling the vastness of my ignorance 

Draped in pain and persecution of its own

Freeing myself from the weight of it all

Turning again and again in a quest for wisdom 

Spinning

Towards tomorrow

Knowing a better future is available

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