The chatter is ongoing. I post here and on instagram when a significant thought breaks through. I hope these messages might be helpful. xo

BELIEF GRIEF

my words are trapped, stuck in the pit of my despair

i think because I can't find them.. maybe they have gone away

then a trigger happens

an unhinged tidal wave escapes my lips

gasping breaths engulf anyone in their wake

my void met with pity, confusion, at best, concern

belief upended beyond comprehension

death of faith

my shattered soul a heap of rubble

contained in the seeming normal sight of me - why?

there was good, i saw it, loved it pure

where to turn?

for it is clear, at least to me, that the world is upside down

so, old though i am, i try to flip my body

it's a brave move - i'm still suspended midway

i don't know how it goes, but now the tears flow from my feet

attempting to releasing my truth, excavating the roots of my lineage

watering the scorched earth nearer now to my head

beseeching me to build better

will I have the courage to imagine that…